If you ask me to describe my life for past two weeks, the one word that strikes me is SOLITUDE. Well, not the one that has a deep and philosophical meaning. I meant being alone in real for almost nine hours everyday.
Since i'm supposedly on holidays and i have got no work to do, and also mum goes for office at 9a.m. and returns back at 6p.m., I am locked inside a walled box, ALONE!
I won't say that it's hell, gotta acknowledge the presence of of the entertaining stuffs and favourite munches. Moreover, i love my HOME-SWEET-HOME.
I had never felt strained being at home before gran had moved to a different house. Well, times change.
Some great Heads, including me, used to say that loneliness is the perfect factor when you can spend time for yourself and realize many things. But this holds true only with the "IF-AND-ONLY-IF" condition. Not 9hours everyday! I didn't ask for any realization of my 20 years life! Duh!
Well, there is a good side (gotta be somewhat positive in negative) as well as the cons-side. +'s are that, i am managing a whole house by myself, Quite responsible heh. :-) and i can think and write with ease. I spend time in a lot of ways (as mentioned as MY-WORLD). The TOP +, I can sing and dance without restrictions. YAY! :-)
Now, for the -'s. The only one, I am going mad being alone. I can't keep track of my thoughts as it is getting over-crowded and sometimes i am getting confused if i am thinking naturally or trying to think like someone else, Cos' at times, i either sound too powerful and authoritative or forlorn and lost. Both, NOT SO ME!
But i won't say that i get bored. No, i don't feel the boredom.. Or maybe, i feel so but i wanna feel that i don't feel so.. (Ya right, the CONFUSING ME!)
Moreover, at the end of the day, i pretty sure can't remember the day except for it being monotonous and blank.
Being HOME-ALONE isn't that fun, though it may sound so. At home, you want to hear people chit-chatting, want someone to scold you and give some work, want to hear the silence as well as the snores during noon nap and also want to be waken up by the noises of house work.
Seriously, TO ALL THOSE WHO WISH FOR HOME-ALONE DAYS, You are just asking for something that you would probably regret later.
Dream. Live. Cherish.