I KEEP WALKING. . .

it happens everytime

and only to me..

no wonder why i need no mask,

when the real face is one. .

am no fake..

yet reality is latent..

i get pushed and pulled;

kicked and thrown..

but everytime the play ends,

i dont lose

yet i seem to be lost..

searching for the missing me

being in heavy shoes;

i keep walking

in an unknown track..

i see progress,

when i am dragging myself in my path..

i see laughs and joy,

but when i try, i find the back-end broken..

people call me sleepyhead,

and i dont deny..

cos' when the whole world is sleeping,

i can see myself,

the real "me" living..

nevertheless.. i keep walking,

with no more than two entities,

the living dreams and the dead reality..

only to find myself facing a dead-end..

i shout from the depth of my heart,

for some light and support..

but i could see,

neither my source nor my vector..

and the only ears to receive me,

are those of mine..

i turn back and start walking..

cos' the end of my journey,

is not the end of my road,

but that of hope..

and i keep walking,

unfocussed and uncanny..

disturbed yet determined..

indifferent but not inhuman..

cos' i can never be judged by material minds and ambitious hearts..

i keep walking. . . . . .

THE BETTER WAY..

In the journey of life, we get to know about countless number of people, persons with different faces,minds and ways..

and..we share moments and memories, smiles and hi5's, friendship and feelings, etc. with those whom we like..

but there are people whom we find bad.. and i think it is better to keep away from them.. even if they keep interferring in our ways, instead of criticising them outwardly,it is a lot better to ignore their ways.

cos' if there is a problem with someone's attitude and thoughts, the best to do is to be with the ones whose attitudes are likeable enough rather than forcing them to change or criticising them in public.. and this is what we expect from others actually..
also.. maintaining self-discipline is more important than working on a second-person's ways..

well..this writing is just the effect of a "cold" talk which i witnessed among some people today.. :)

seems crazzy! !

sometimes, it is difficult to control laughter when watching or hearing something funny and comical, even when one is in bad mood or in some kind of serious situation.. well i cant..

i was in a not-so-good mood for the past few days and my health is not upto the mark due to commencement of college which increases the need for good relaxation and sleep..and i was waiting for this weekend so badly,with plans of good sleep and relaxation..so that i could be up for the next week..

but yesterday, my "relaxing" plan got busted when my mom told that i would be leaving to my native by sunday night and return home by tuesday morning(6-hour journey).. and also i have to attend a house-warming function on sunday morning.. adding to my health problems, travel fatigue and a no-break week.. i was so damn irritated.. :x :x

today morning, after attending the function, when we were on our way back home (didnt talk or laugh much and was in a bad temper, should say not-so-good temper as i was able to smile on seeing my cousins) when the auto stopped at a traffic signal, a cow walking on the road-side grazed past a man standing at a bus-stop and the man,without realizing that it was a buffalo,turned back and said "sorry"..

well..it was damn funny and few people who witnessed that,including that man, laughed..and i,who was maintaining a sulky look, burst out laughing..which made the auto-man wonder whether it was the hot sun that made me go nuts or something else (my family is used to my sudden and unreasonable laughter as i see many things crazy and funny which others might find indifferent)and he later enquired my mom about my laugh..

that's it.. not sure whether it was the "funniest moment" or the "funniest me".. :)

whatever it is,it helped.. wonder where my bad temper go.. :D :P

MAN!! AM STILL ALIVE. .

there are times when someone gets hurt because of the carelessness and mistake of someone else..

well this little shock happened to me yesterday (i.e. at 4pm of 13-12-08)when i was sitting in my college bus and waiting for the bus to start from college..i peeped my head outside through the window to see if there are any of my friends nearby to talk to..since i did not see any familiar face.. i planned to sit properly and listen music.. and when i was withdrawing myself from the window gap, the girl who was sitting infront of me opened her side window, closing mine..and she didnt notice me having my head outside..

well easy to picturize the moment rite?? thank goodness, i had my hands on it that the window got blocked..and i escaped with a scratch on the side of my hand and a light hit on the side of my head..

i didnt make it a big issue.. as always..the other said sorry and i smiled and told her to be cautious next time.. cant expect the others to be careful and caring on you all the time..

and anyways..even if that girl is not careful while opening the window next time, i am gonna be.. i just dont wanna scare the hell outta anyone.. that particular moment-fear keeps ringing and vibrating inside the head for some minutes..

quotes and proverbs about friendship have been written, scripted and framed,and are being cherished through times. but this act seems never-ending and every individual have their own thoughts and views about friendship which they cherish throughout their life..

this is mainly because of the influence it has in one's life and its power to add meaning and purpose to life..

now-a-days the act of categorizing friends, as best, good, close, special, hi-bye, etc. till boyfriend/girlfriend(this i dont understand the presence of the word 'friend' cos it is supposed to mean something different i guess), is common and each has its own characteristics..

this is not anything to be wronged about but..
i think(my view) that sometimes few tend to rule out the basic and simple,yet the important and actual, meaning of friendship when the views of their most-prioritized friendship gets deeper.. and sometimes many tend to forget the main purpose of friendship in their process of setting an example out of it, which is actually unnecessary..

well, i really cant think of any real-time examples of friendship but there is one which many know(which might be fictional or spiritual) which is the friendship between lord krishna and the devotee kuselan.. and the underlying factor of their friendship is the simple faith they had on each other..

and that's what friendship exactly means (to me), trusting each other and accepting them for what they are..

there are certain "mostly-forgotten" factors like, giving space for thoughts and views rather than influencing acts and decisions, sharing and respecting privacy at the same time rather than expecting everything to be shared, really understanding them rather than speaking dialogues,etc..
and things like expectations, possessiveness, doubts,etc dont account for the tag "evergreen-friendship-forever", though it might add to closeness it normally results in coldness and misunderstandings..

the feel of deep and intense friendship is really great and adding unnecessary complexities dosnt go well with the rhythm of friendship..

p.s. the above views are mine..and will ofcourse contradict with many.. just reading and knowing my thought is enough..no need to accept or oppose..
and also..preserve the uniqueness of friendship.. friendship rocks!! :)