NERVOUS..TENSED..EXCITED.. CONFUSED.. HUH! WHATEVER!

     This is one of the most common feel which i rather mask it all the time.

     Brace yourselves, here comes the description with my own unique UNBEARABLE way of expressing things. The feeling goes likes this.

     It would be as though the seismic waves are spreading within you that you find yourself shaking at a richter scale of 9, your stomach gets tightened and your heart plays the skip-rope, you would feel like crying out loud  yet, you wanna laugh like crazy too. You wanna be left alone but you would find yourself talking a lot. You want to sleep but rather you feel like dancing mad. If there were any witness for the extremity of such a feeling of yours, you would certainly be mistaken for a neuro patient. Phew. 

     Well, this is how one, well i for one, would feel so at times of tension combined with some excitement. For instance, when results for whatever it might be are expected to come, when you are going on a date for the first time, on the night prior to the day of your marriage. And, when you are selected for a job and waiting for the call. And furthermore, all your friends except for you have received the calls and you are still waiting, waiting and waiting, to get to know your location and joining date. 

     All i am doing right now is praying for a good location, along with my friend and getting some confusing varying thoughts like, how the hell i got missed out, what if my resume had stuck to its neighbours or flown away when the window was kept open,. . . 

     And more mad thoughts like, whether was it real or had i been dreaming that i got really selected by the company and i am trying to focus whether did it really happen or were it my illusion. . .

      And interfering ones like, what if i get posted in a separate place with no friends and in new locality. . 

     Oh god.. let this get over soon. Cos' am really really going too mad about it..

     At such times, i write down, which i am doing right now and which would be saved in drafts till i format it. And then, listen to music or say aal izz well,Which i might have learnt this from a bollywood movie but trust me, it sure works. 

     Moreover, The world is in need of me. Okay, sorry for that overkill. But there are people out there who is probably going nerve wreck over this silly call letter issue. 

     These are times when you need to feel positive without any reason so that you could pass on some positive energy to others and help them feel a bit better, which is a better alternative than chorusing with them the "mee-too, boohoo" song.

Time to get back to work.

     I had written this post, last week, when my friends, except for 4 or 5 including me, didn't get the call. While everyone else were frustrated and were acting tensed, i was actually feeling mad initially but i got this idea of writing down the scene since i would not be able to recreate the exact feel, unless otherwise it happens again and i get to remember to pen down. Also, writing it down provided a way to relieve the tension and also it would later sound funny whenever i read it. I still didn't get the call yet, but then, AAL IZZ WELL!! :-)

As i said before,

Time to get back to work.

Cherio. :-)

     

STOP IT RIGHT THERE! BEFORE YOU START THINKING FOR HER..

     We are so much sticked in our own shoes that we just cant put ourselves in others'.

     After done with the appreciations and wishes on getting through a selection process, a friend said to me, "I know! You must have worn your color contacts to get the panel's attention". Though i reasoned out that i wear contacts normally and i don't even believe in luck and looks cant even have a mention, he didn't seem to accept it. The conversation ended there. 

     I know. It's just one of those insignificant instances in life, that rather seem to bring out the fact that every one of us have that "insignificant" slump in our hearts. 

     The question of the decade : WHO ARE WE TO DECIDE ON THE REASONS OF OTHERS?

  

   The moment you narrate some incident or action of yours, there would be many eyes that would evaluate you and many minds that would try to classify you, but only one ear, which is of yours, that would be hearing what you actually speak. And, not to deny, none is exceptional in this case, Just admitting the fact that we apply our minds for others too.

     We are just shallow in our reasons for others' ways, yet we say that we have OUR-OWN-GOOD-REASONS, which unfortunately would be met with the same face valuing by others.

Too much fiddling around heh.. 

     Well, We are just being what we see as complicated way. 

Why not just have things basic and simple.

Rather than tightening our noose, why not just let people have their way with their reasons and just acknowledging them, and leaving it to them to talk truth or show fake.

Why not let our ears listen to what they actually tell, rather than hearing what we expect that they should be telling.

     My phone rang. I picked up and the voice said, "I know why you didn't respond me last night. You are just over-acting". Wishing that i hadn't used my phone this time too, i replied, "Good thing you know". The reply, "I can see through people" and i replied, "sure you can" and kept the phone down. Can't even see what i see normally, then why such attitudes of seeing through people.

     Yep, never tolerate such attitudes and put yourself through paces. The previous content (in blue color) applies in the contra-way. If someone blocks you with their presumed mind-set, then let them do. After-all, it's better to ignore rather than bell the cat in trying to make our views sound.

     Let's feel our simple minds in our bonds.

Dream. Live. Cherish.